Take This To Heart.

Nobody comes back

The same as when they left.

The doorway is no longer a portal

To safety but the yawning gap

Between us.

We lost the keys,

Love, and broke off the knobs

A long, long time ago.

- “Our Feet on the Word Welcome” By Karen Ann Capco

Yes.

Here's some advice via my Swedish CupCake Jen.


"When saying goodbye is too much...


Just say I Love You.


And if they love you back,


Then of course they will understand."



So true.


Sometimes you just can't be afraid to be happy.


You can't be afraid that you won't make it through the free fall...


Sometimes we have to be more than a little brave.

Evolve.

"We cross our bridges when we come to them

And burn them behind us,

With nothing to show for our progress except

A memory of the smell of smoke,

And a presumption that once our eyes watered."

-Tom Stoppard

Something that made my night...

A girl's facebook info box read:

"Hi I'm Shanae.

And I'm comfortable in my skin.

Are you?"

Well now...

Are you?

I Want This Necklace.

And a free trip to disney world please!

For All 2010 Graduates

So I went to my friend Tzitzi’s graduation today. She spit a poem for the ceremony.

(Get ready for a soft ass moment here)

Of course it touched me (not inappropriately. she’s kinda amazing) because the message was so true. So I decided to share it with all of you graduates. Hopefully it inspires you to keep achieving and dreaming and all that good shit.

If you want to comment about the poem and you have me as a friend on facebook, you can check in my notes. Its the most recent one. Enjoy.

Little girl Art
Is a mixtape CD the radio would never put on rotation.
Too much truth lingers in her tongue
Over a hip hop beat tangled with a jazz sample.


She has the heart of a subway train performer somewhere in Union Square.
She’s not asking for much though,
Just tokens of appreciation in her Styrofoam cup of lyrics
Her mother tells her to keep her head up ….
As if she’s having staring contests with the clouds
Because the gravity of life is so quick to put you down.


Discouraged in her skin,
She puts her head facing the ground.
Asks herself what is the reason for following her voice if no one cares to listen
Why bother chasing dreams,
When the jungles in between seem only to break her self esteem
Life is a game with no teams.


She wants to be a successful musician - not a celebrity
She knows the paparazzi camera lenses
Are just the eyes of critics ready to mimic her strength,
They only want to snake her,
never build her, only break her,
Cause the cameras only take enough to make you fake.


Mommy says,
It’s not about what they can dance to,
It’s about what they can relate to.
Your music has the heart of a million dead legends
You can’t quit.
Too many people live nightmares never chasing their dreams -
And I swear you have the will to find a way.
Dreams are always closer than they appear like side-view mirrors.
Just look once in a while.


Talk like you own your destiny.
Walk like the inside of a gun barrel,
Never let them tell you that you don’t have enough fire in you.
Breathe off passion.
Live off your talent
Never let the cameras, and radio stations define you.
Never let a speed bump in the road get you off track jack,
You’ll be fine, you can get through the rough.
Life is tough.
But never enough a game one can’t win in.


Little girl Art
Stays true to self
Keeps her dreams quilted around the fiery cage of her walk.
She breathes a thousand tomorrow’s
Custom made for the voice of a thousand dead legends,
She is the mixtape
Gone in the wind for every dream a man,
Or woman has made a U-turn from
Needing the radio to remind them..
They are not alone.

She, too, once neglected her destiny
Only to find that living a life that wasn’t on her to-be list
Was the same as living a life that wasn’t her own
Mommy tells her,
In life, there are two streets.
The one that’s yours,
And the one you’ll learn not to take again.


Choose your path,
Be the soldier on the lines of the etch-a-sketched life you create,
Right, left, right, left
Be right in all you do even if it’s considered left field,
Never let your dreams be left unreal
Just..
Do what makes you happy.


Clouds
Just make the sky seem further,
But never let it candy coat your eyes in
Believing things are impossible.


Little girl Art
Is the Mixtape CD somewhere inside your heart right now..
And she wants to let you know,
That dreaming big…
Is the same…
As dreaming possible.

Temptation.

Everyone has an issue with temptation.


And it appears to me in the most attractive of forms.


I remember this each time it comes to me:


No temptation has seized you except what is common to man.
And God is faithful;
he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.
But when you are tempted,
he will also provide a way out
so that you can stand up under it. - 1 Corinthians 10:13


And I'm stronger than you think.

Inspiration of the day

via Twitter:

"Have faith that your life is happening exactly the way its intended to.

Your miracles will come as soon as they're perfected for you."



My friend Lauren sent this to me because she loves me.

Follow her @bunnieface

And me @sun_painting.

Take that quote to heart.

Real Rap.

I've been feeling really down lately.

I've been taking a second look at everything I have done in my past



I've been re-evaluating who is going to make it my future.



It's been a tough week so far.



Anywho



Yesterday I was sharing personal secrets with a new friend



I opened up about what I think ruins all of my relationships



And how my guy's ego is so heavy that it's keeping me down.



So of course she fell asleep on me -_-



(like always)



But I woke up this morning to this text message:


"I think that you're beautiful, and that faults are inevitable.
If he's not prepared to help you grow then...
Deuces."


I'm posting this on my blog so I always remember.


Anyone can always be quick to judge


Quick to down you


Quick to leave.


The ones who stick with you during the most painful time


During your most shameful time


Are the ones worth keeping.


As for him and his ego...


I hope he sees that this feeling will pass. I'm still the same person.


With a few mistakes on my belt


And a few whelps from the lessons beaten into me.


If he loves me, he'll grow with me.

I hope he will.

Inspiration of the day

"Who carved pure love

and foolishly placed him by this feeble fountain,

sure of himself thinking he could tame

such fire, wild as it is

with such little water."

By Tony.

For the New Year Part 2...

This woman is really speaking words I should heed to.



"Chasing things of this world is like trying to chase the wind;

No matter what you do, you'll never catch it.

And you'll run out of breath trying."

-Andrea Felisha.



If you happen to blow my way, then fine.


But I'm definitely not gonna chase you.


I have asthma.


And ain't enough asthma pumps in the world for that.

Inspiration For the Day

I have some really talented friends...

This is Tony.

(he's so gonna kill me for using this pic :D )

My best friend of almost a year now.

My twin, the guy version of myself.

And this is a poem he wrote today:

I could never tell what you are sometimes

Like clouds floating in my mind I try to figure you out

I find myself having trouble with this

For others they see beauty all I see is a blank canvas

It is not your fault that I don't understand you but then again...

Its your fault for not wanting me too.

All I gotta say is he has some hidden talent...

And I wanna hear more.

Don't you?

Note to self...

I'm older...

Wiser....

Stronger....

Better....

So self, do me a favor....

And PLEASE....

STOP LETTING ME DO STUPID SHIT!

ahem* Thanx.

That is All.

*

Inspiration of the Day

Freedom is not merely the opportunity to do as one pleases; neither is it merely the opportunity to choose between set alternatives. Freedom is, first of all, the chance to formulate the available choices, to argue over them -- and then, the opportunity to choose.
C. Wright Mills

Inspiration of the Day

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go. things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe

So as I was sitting here procrastinating by looking for myspace layouts

(hush all, it relaxes me)

I stumbled across that quote.

I was feeling really shitty before I read that (shitty for my own actions and shitty for wishing that people could sometimes change how and who they are) but for some odd reason it made me feel better.

I felt acceptance.

Now don't get me wrong, I don't feel like I'm invincible or ready to take on anything.

Shit, I don't even really think I'm strong enough to deal with some things.

But whatever is coming, is coming. Regardless of whether I sit and brood about it.

So I can embrace it, procrastinate a little more, sit and cry, try and sleep it off.

Or keep that quote in mind as I face something big in my life today.

I'm gonna go with the latter.

Thanx Monroe.