Thursday, July 29, 2010

Huge Sigh.

I buy a wonderful blackberry curve for half its price.

Bought it off a friend.

Everything was going great.

And someone spills juice on it and it won't turn on.

I am back at home.

I have a roommate now. One of my best friend's since high school.

She doesn't have a key yet.

I wanted to go out tonight.

Can't contact her because of my phone.

I get locked in because I can't lock her out.

Oh and by the way...

I'm broke. No insurance on that phone.

No way to buy a new one.

And the day started off so perfect.

I woke up to a beautiful morning call.

Counted my blessings, made it to all my appointments on time.

I smiled.

And now this happens.

Huge Sigh.

I'm gonna go sit and sulk. Because that's the only way I'm passing
time tonight apparently.

*pout face*

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Because I said I would.

John Mayer-Slow Dancing In A Burning Room Cover

Yeah I'm obsessed with the song.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

I'm Human.

I'm slacking on this 30 day challenge thing.

What's worse is that I have enough time to get caught up...

But I'm just not feeling it.

Let me clear my head loves,

Maybe I'll get back on track.

No promises though.


;] I'm human.

Sunday, July 11, 2010


"We cross our bridges when we come to them

And burn them behind us,

With nothing to show for our progress except

A memory of the smell of smoke,

And a presumption that once our eyes watered."

-Tom Stoppard

Friday, July 9, 2010

It's 2010.

Things you need to do:

Google Oscar Grant

Then youtube the video of his shooting.

Or just watch it here.

It's 2010, not 1965.

Amadou Diallo.

Sean Bell.

Now Oscar Grant.

THIS is the definition of justice?

A blatant and merciless killing and he gets off with involuntary manslaughter?

Obama, get on your job.

Everyone else needs to wake up.

Take a look around you.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

It's Time...

...For a 10-1

(Ten to One)

And what is a 10-1 you might ask?

Click HERE for more details.


I knew that you would eventually find a girl
Who would be willing to be with you.
Who didn't leave subtle pauses
Between her palms and yours.
I'm happy for your gain.
But lately I've been feeling my loss.
Guess what they say is true.
About Karma that is.
The man I love pauses too.

When you finally do come back to my life
I won't be the same.
And you'll be okay with that
Because we are friends
True friends
And I'm glad.

Here is to new beginnings
Fluttering wings
Late night conversations
And growth in our flight
I love you chica.

I'm not sure where you fit in my life anymore
But I'm willing to let you go
Stop clinging
There are no strands
For you to hold onto.
Go live.

I make my own decisions.
I do what I please.
Because it is the best course for me.
You won't stop me.

You have never called me beautiful
It irks me.
But I've always known better.
Deep down
That's where I'm going to leave you.
Is as far as we go.

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
And I'm out.

I cannot wait to meet you again.
Mothers are like fine wine sometimes
They get better with age.
Let's toast to us.

I left you with the ashes too.
You keep trying to rebirth yourself.
Its okay friend,
I just might let you.

You are wonderful darling
But I shine a bit more brightly
It's either me or her.
I'm giving you the green light.
Tired of crying
Tired of waiting
And I already know your answer
I'm just ready for you to tell me to
I love you more than you know.
But you don't know that
I love me more.
Clock's ticking.

Day 11: Your Siblings

Sometimes I have blood

Others I have branches. Bark

Runs in families.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Something that made my night...

A girl's facebook info box read:

"Hi I'm Shanae.

And I'm comfortable in my skin.

Are you?"

Well now...

Are you?

Day 10: What You Wore Today

Today, I was brave

In my skin. My curves conquered

This weather's hot breath.

Monday, July 5, 2010

And right now...

"I got used to the treadmill love

Where no matter how fast you run,

You're stuck at the starting point,

Only exhausted. "

(sara bareilles)

I've got to admit love.

I'm tired.

So tired.

I love myself more than this.

Maybe it's time I go.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Day 9: My Beliefs

As Staceyann Chin

Smartly wrote: "Tomorrow is

A Tricky Promise."

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Day 8: A Moment...

Things my heart used to

Know. Across my memory.

Nostalgic Disney.

Day 7: Your Best Friend

We are not afraid

To fall. Together we will

Always fly harder.

Day 6: My Day

I never lusted

At Summer's heat. I always

Hoped that it would fade.

To Answer ChyeahBella's Question...

In case you didn't see my comment

I get my horoscopes from

And when they forget to update that

I go to


My Horoscope

If things aren't right in the love department,
don't be shy about saying something.
If you need to change the status quo in one area,
speak up. It is never too late to change how you do things.
Work together so that everyone wins; it's the best way to move forward.

Now. Dear Horoscope.... I love how you tell me WHAT to do without instructions on HOW to do it. -_____- Love, A doomed Taurus.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Day 5: Your Definition Of Love

My definition

Of lasting Love is Silence

Before Rash Speaking.

Day 4: What You Ate Today

Cheese is my Goddess.

I worship her through my fork.

My stomach, her Temple.

Day 3: Your Parents

Mothers give life to

Legends. I hold my story

Within her lifelines.

Day 2: Your First Love

We loved like infants

Scrapes, bruises...My Heart is Wise

Woman now. Thank You.

Day 1: Introduce Yourself

I am only as

Bright as the Light beneath your

Swept Eyelids. Now Blink.

30 Day Challenge

So there's this 30 challenge going on:

Day 01 – Introduce yourself
Day 02 – Your first love

Day 03 – Your parents

Day 04 – What you ate today 

Day 05 – Your definition of love

Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend

Day 08 – A moment

Day 09 – Your beliefs
Day 10 – What you wore today 

Day 11 – Your siblings

Day 12 – What’s in your bag

Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – What you wore today
Day 15 – Your dreams
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Day 17 – Your favorite memory

Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
Day 19 – Something you regret

Day 20 – This month

Day 21 – Another moment

Day 22 – Something that upsets you
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better

Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place

Day 28 – Something that you miss

Day 29 – Your aspirations

Day 30 – One last moment

I'm doing the full length version on my tumblr


But for my lovely blogspot,

I will do the 30 days in Haiku.

Expect Irregular Updates.

I mean you love me, right? That shouldnt be a problem.

Now the question is...