I remember the Fall with you.
Walks splintered into my stopwatch of a schedule.
Stanzas squeezed into the streaming of my pulse.
You held my hand once.
I remember laying in the park with you.
Hesitation fed by petty grass stains.
This was before I wanted to untie the soul
You secretly twisted in your tongue.
It was simple then.
When I was still too afraid to be hopeful.
When I molded you out of
The freshest dirt in my day dream.
Before I got hit with a heart
Full of quaking bricks.
I remember your breath before the sunset.
The way a smile used to taste on you.
The way the sun winked at the hardened glass
In your eyes.
Back when I liked your eyes best.
When I didn't mind them being quiet
I remember my frostbitten breathing.
And accepting the fog to them.
I remember the tears in the train station.
I remember your phone number.
I remember all the sweet words flexed away from me
The alcohol swished in your system
The truth you spilled because of it.
It's September again.
I remember the poisoned peace you never owed me.
The lead I still carry in my rib cage.
The way it weighs me down when I flit forward.
I remember silly poems.
And late night phone conversations.
I remember how you bit too hard
How I never had the guts to tell you.
And I keep wondering
If it was really that easy for you to forget.