CAT EARS!

CAT EARS!!!

Some small part of me (deep, deep down in the trenches of my being) thinks that I should not be this damn excited over some damn cat ears.

What am I 7?

Well at heart...

I'm actually only 9.

CAT EARS!!!!

Inspiration of the Day

Freedom is not merely the opportunity to do as one pleases; neither is it merely the opportunity to choose between set alternatives. Freedom is, first of all, the chance to formulate the available choices, to argue over them -- and then, the opportunity to choose.
C. Wright Mills

For everyone in my life who keeps bringin those negative vibes...

The light's green babe.

You can GO.

Sweet Nanny Strikes Again

So I go to see my grandma in the nursing home/rehab center where she is staying for the moment...

And of course she just gives me another story to tell.

Me: (kissing grandma on the cheek) I love you Grandma

Grammy: (squirming) yeah yeah

Me: (still kissing) You're so cute! I love you so much

Grammy: (still squirming) Yeah I heard you, get the hell off me now

Me:....NO! (kisses cheek more fiercely) I LOVE YOU!

Grammy: (looks me straight in the eye) Yeah you gonna love my fist in your face too.

Me:................

O_O

-_-

(bemused face)

Me: Why you always gotta do me like that ma?

Grandma: (insert evil laughter here)

Look at her. Lookin all innocent.

She ain't sweet goddammit!!

Random...

Haat16 : dude penetrating thoughts sounds like mindfuck
blackivy103 : it IS !
Haat16 : ooooooooooo cuz every time i see it i giggle
blackivy103 : lol this makes me want a cookie
Haat16 : ?
blackivy103 : mind fucking always leaves me hungry
Haat16 : o it just leaves me feeling bloated and confused
blackivy103 : lmfaoooo

Compliments of aim. I thought it was funny.

Insomnia

"You have managed to turn me from a woman of substance into this"-Jill Scott

Insomnia - Jill Scott

I like those unattainable men.

The ones that fight so hard that you can never tell how sensitive they really are.

I like the ones who joke around too much.

The ones who let themself become ruled by the streets

even though

the streets can never love them like I do.

I like men who disappear.

And this applies to all of the people I've dated

slept with

Or had an emotional connection to.

I like those men who keep me up at night

crying

dreaming

holding my stomach

trying to calm down those persistent butterflies.

I don't like christmas gifts

I don't like saying hi drive bys

I don't like anxiety.

I don't like sleeping.

...well now that those random thoughts are over....

All of that was inspired by Jill Scott's Insomnia, A conversation with my friend Six and A dream I had a week ago.

And these next lines will forever haunt me. I will always relate to them. And I'm not sure if I will ever be grateful for that.

Thanx Aaron.

(time to wake up, put on my strong face and hope that no one will know)

You have managed to turn me from a woman of substance

Into A

Brick Flying

Calling too damn much

Crying and crying

Spying

Way down down low

With flats on

From the opposite side of the bar

Easy Off

Loaded on top of your car

Chick.

I never intended to be this chick.

Groping at smoke for her mind

Or the readily dissolving remnants of it

After being chased

I've been dismissed

As just an object

Something to play with

You have managed to turn me

From a woman of substance

Into this.

Inspiration of the Day

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go. things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe

So as I was sitting here procrastinating by looking for myspace layouts

(hush all, it relaxes me)

I stumbled across that quote.

I was feeling really shitty before I read that (shitty for my own actions and shitty for wishing that people could sometimes change how and who they are) but for some odd reason it made me feel better.

I felt acceptance.

Now don't get me wrong, I don't feel like I'm invincible or ready to take on anything.

Shit, I don't even really think I'm strong enough to deal with some things.

But whatever is coming, is coming. Regardless of whether I sit and brood about it.

So I can embrace it, procrastinate a little more, sit and cry, try and sleep it off.

Or keep that quote in mind as I face something big in my life today.

I'm gonna go with the latter.

Thanx Monroe.