Real Rap.

I've been feeling really down lately.

I've been taking a second look at everything I have done in my past



I've been re-evaluating who is going to make it my future.



It's been a tough week so far.



Anywho



Yesterday I was sharing personal secrets with a new friend



I opened up about what I think ruins all of my relationships



And how my guy's ego is so heavy that it's keeping me down.



So of course she fell asleep on me -_-



(like always)



But I woke up this morning to this text message:


"I think that you're beautiful, and that faults are inevitable.
If he's not prepared to help you grow then...
Deuces."


I'm posting this on my blog so I always remember.


Anyone can always be quick to judge


Quick to down you


Quick to leave.


The ones who stick with you during the most painful time


During your most shameful time


Are the ones worth keeping.


As for him and his ego...


I hope he sees that this feeling will pass. I'm still the same person.


With a few mistakes on my belt


And a few whelps from the lessons beaten into me.


If he loves me, he'll grow with me.

I hope he will.

Song of the month...

Where do we go from here?

What do I do with these feelings?

The words above are lyrics to Eric Roberson's duet with Lalah Hathaway.

The song is called Dealing.

They both have extremely beautiful voices and the lyrics are relevant to my life currently so...

Enjoy.

Epiphany of the Day

Shout outs to all the people who actually read my blog.

The old and the new.

You guys make me actually wanna write more entries :)

And it's so weird. This followers thing. It reminds me of people actually listening to me.

Shocker.

Anywhoo, I blogstalk enough to know that when one is randomly looking through a person's blog, something about it must stand out.

Something has to be interesting to catch someone's eye to make them want to read more.

Or follow you.

And frankly I feel that

that

is alot

of effing pressure!

I mean I'll gladly give my readers something to read but what about all those unknown faces I want to reach out to?

I've been on alot of people's blogs and left feeling like I just wasted my time trying to see if this person's point of view is something that interests me.

It's like you have to have 1 impressive blog up, thats RECENT and isn't old. (you have to be REALLY special to make me go through all of your old posts).

That's why I love you guys who actually sit there and read my pyscho babble.

I could be boring and bland and sucky

or just not your cup of tea.

But there you guys are. To my right. Gradually building in size.

I have 28 followers today.

Tomorrow who knows?

Maybe we could build an army.

Yes?

Yes???

No?

Fiiiine.

But I'll be back with that idea!